Everyone has a job to do. Evidently one of mine is to write these thought rambles on a REGULAR BASIS — sharing how spirit is active in my life. If I don’t write often, my life becomes more interesting than I care for. I have trouble sleeping. Many things go wrong. It is much easier on me to write. Except when the cupboard is bare.
Thanks to this lovely virus and the 90 degree weather — 18 and counting. I don’t go much — or wander when I’m out. Therefore I have no ideas to base a ramble on. Thankfully my husband “HELPED”. Dream last night left me worried. Not sure where we were. We had been in line to get a shot for the virus. He was unsteady on his feet — very weak, an ELDERLY MAN — AN INVALID and I was giving myself hell for insisting we go out. I didn’t know how I would get him home. I woke up before I solved the problem.
This morning I opened Queen of Angels to RECOGNIZING CHOICES. I don’t know if I’m still beating myself up for not realizing his health had deteriorated. I opened the Bible to Isaiah 28 — “When the overwhelming scourge passes.”
Interesting questions — no answers. Did my husband know that he would have become an invalid — a burden on me? Did he chose to go home? Did he know this pandemic was coming?
I’m careful when I go to the stores. My children worry. I’m no longer young. I even wandered to China town this week. I ONLY VISITED THE HEALTH FOOD STORE. Happy to see that they were open, they were in good health and had the stuff I needed. I don’t know how many years I have shopped there. I don’t know what caused me to wander there. Memory has failed me. I was PROUD of myself. I didn’t wander to many of the stores I like to visit. Looked in the windows but quickly found my car and came home.
After I shared my dream with my daughter this morning, she remarked that Dad was lucky he went home. He WOULD NOT have been able to deal with Covid 19. I WOULD NOT HAVE HAD THE FREEDOM TO GO SHOPPING. I WOULD BE EXTREMELY CONCERNED THAT I WOULD BRING THE VIRUS HOME.
Wandering With Spirit 
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