RESTRICTED
My oldest daughter told me to have patience with myself. My friend told me the same thing. STOP JUDGING YOURSELF. Stop raking yourself over the coals of all the stuff you haven’t accomplished. Give yourself a break. Since Covid 19, and the stay at home order, I read or hear about all the stuff that others have accomplished. I HAVE ACCOMPLISHED NOTHING!!
I’m not proud of that. I wish our house was cleaner. I wish I had gotten rid of more stuff. I wish I had lost weight or started an exercise program. I HAVE ACCOMPLISHED NONE OF THAT. I’m perfectly content sitting and watching the world go by. DEPRESSION? GRIEF? Good questions — no answer.
PAINT? I have plenty of supplies but NO IDEAS. WRITE? I have trouble coming up with an idea for a weekly thought ramble. My life becomes more interesting when nothing is ready to publish. Why with an empty head, am I’m sitting at the keyboard trying to come up with something that somebody would want to read?
I have been reading a thought ramble by a fellow writer for more years than I can count. Recently she has skipped weeks. She mentioned that because of the events of our world — the pandemic and the civil unrest — she can’t write. I understand. I’m GLAD THAT I’M NOT ALONE.
Normally by the middle of August I have spent many weeks at the camper. Because of the 90 degree temperature that has lasted for weeks, I have spent the time in the city. To be honest, because of the pandemic, many of the events at the campground have been cancelled or limited. Water exercise is not happening this year. The one thing that I have been really happy about is that after 6 months I GOT MY HAIR CUT. So far I’ve only been at the camper 19 days.
The man who I depend on at the camper to do my winterizing and winter watch is concerned. He is worried that the pandemic will increase and access to the campground will be limited. Because of his concern, I have agreed to an early winterizing if necessary. I have spent time at the camper in the winter when we didn’t have running water and know how to handle it. I’ve asked him to leave the gas on and electric until late October.
In May when our state was under a stay home order, the campground requested us to stay home. Not bring the pandemic out to their area. I really hope that doesn’t happen again.